Her eyes look up at me with clear distaste as I reach for that last one. The one that is going to get me through, the one that is going to save me. There are things in life that are so bad but make you feel so good. This relationship is one of them. The feeling I get when i'm near, knowing that in just another minute it will be mine.
She doesn't like who I am or rather who I have become but it's about time she learned that you can't plan life for someone else; you can't make someone into something they're not. I love myself, why wouldn't I. I love who I am when i'm with the one I love. I will do anything for it. Anything.
This place is my haven, my sacred ground. I am free from condemnation because they all love. They all know the feeling of its embrace, the recklessness, the euphoria. No explanations are needed here, never here.
But like with all lovers, there are rough patches. Some situations are easily thwarted while others are a lot harder to circumvent. With a lover like mine its easy to make mistakes and fall into that dark place, the place that makes you feel so cold inside and you forget who you are, were, are going to be.
My lover, my other half, my can't live without is my bottle, my spirits, my liquor.
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